Context: so i’ve been lucid dreaming on accident for a while now but didn’t have a clue what to do during the dreams. lately my dreams have been stressful and or frightenin, so i just want to have some type of hold over them , because i’m tired of waking up in distressed. i’m new to this site so i have sooo many questions . lately people been trying to kill me and i’m not aware that i’m dreaming until i feel like that person is getting closer to killing me so i try to open and close my eyes really hard,to wake up. it never works but one time i died and instantly woke up.
Dream: ive had about 2-3 dreams about the same cop trying to kill me and each time he killed me . the last dream i had was me on my way walking to a store close to my neighborhood, where id have to cross a busy road. so i’m walking on the backroad and nothing looks too unfamiliar to me b.c again , im thinking i’m in my neighborhood but things were probably so off (wasn’t aware ). im walking and i look on the side of me , where there is an open field with few tress ; the same exact cop from my last dream(s) . so once i seen the cop , he kept his eyes on my as i kept walking , i didn’t run or anything. but when i seen him , i instantly assumed it was a dream , so i said to myself “this got to be a dream” . as im walking , he’s not following me or anything but he is still looking at me .( now remember from my context , i have been experiencing stressful dreams). so as i cross the street i see a truck heading my way so instantly stand in front of it , waiting for it to hit me. now y’all are probably like “wth , suicide” but remember ; from my context ,i had died and instantly woke up after . i just didn’t want to have to go through the stress of running away and being hunted down.
*SN ; i didn’t instantly die when the truck ran me over , i was very much still alive and didn’t wake till shortly after . i didnt feel not one thing when i git hit
is it bad to kill yourself/die in a LD ?
2. when you have a “regular dream” , do you just become aware that you’re dreaming at some point and then it becomes lucid or do you instantly have a LD and already aware ? idk if that makes since