I am a natural lucid dreamer, have been for as long as I can remember. There was one night in particular that made me come here and write this story. I noticed that while lucid dreaming I have become so comfortable with doing whatever I wanted that I started losing control again but in a different way. Now when I dream I see everything clear as day as usual but that me in my sleep will do whatever it pleases. Its as if I have control but it's less rational thinking and more free and Reckless. For example, I walk to a cliff edge and I put myself in this dark place because of my fear of heights. I make it a scary moment and tell myself I shouldn't jump. The other me thinks if things go bad when I jump ill make it change to something good because I have that control. So I jump anyway knowing it's not something I should do. As I'm falling both my rational and non rational thoughts argue. Like "what if you lose the ability to make things right" then the other me is like "that won't happen let me prove a point to myself" and at the snap of a finger it's as if I landed in water but instead im swimming through air in this beautiful world that I created. Everything I could ever want. I then prove to myself I can live in any fantasy world and move from the harry potter universe, to a nightmare, to my room, and back. Really the possibilities are endless. It's almost as if my dream state is teaching my rational self to relax and everything will be okay. But how? How can I feel two of myself simultaneously? Has anyone else ever had this split between consciousness while lucid dreaming? Is it normal? I'm 30 years old and thought by this time I would outgrow these dreams but they continue to happen a few nights a week.